Sunday, December 17, 2006

Matchbox20 - Bed of Lies.

(the dinky little button on the left plays it. simple enough? )

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
I am

Dont think that I can take another empty moment
Dont think that I can fake another hollow smile
Its not enough just to be sorry
Dont think that I could take another talk about it

Just like me you got needs
And theyre only a whisper away
And we softly surrender
To these lives that weve tendered away

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
I am

Dont wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over
Dont wanna be somewhere where I just dont belong
Where its not enough just be sorry

Dont you know I feel the darkness closing in
Tried to be more than me
And I gave till it all went away
And weve only surrendered
To the worst part of these winters weve made

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
I am

I am all that Ill ever be
When you - lay your hands
Over me but dont go weak on me now
I know that its weak
But God help me I need this

I will not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
Im marking it down to learning
cause I am

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i know i'm not a big fan of mainstream.
but between you and me, im not one with clarity of mind at the moment .

Friday, December 15, 2006

rec·luse /n. [n. rek-loos, ri-kloos; adj. ri-kloos, rek-loos]
4. characterized by seclusion; solitary.


alone.
hello you, the social misfit.
nobody likes you, nobody cares about you, so why don't you drag your ass back into the other window and draw some lines in Microstation.

aight.
have yourself a merry little christmas.
because i sure wont be having one.

Friday, December 08, 2006

daniel's guide to doing relatively well in architecture.

i decided to write this because some people think doing well in architecture is a hard task. sure, the hours are long, and sleeping time's erratic, and the Cs and Ds are in abundance, but somehow, there always is an easier way. (:
here's daniel to save the day.

i cant say my grades are fantastic, but for the effort i put in, i should be getting the Cs and Ds, not in the Bs where i am at the moment. and why? not because im talented, smart, or extremely hardworking(although you all should have known that by now ;) but because there is a key to get grades which are good, relative to the amount of effort you put in. i can't say you'll get your As and become a market spoiler, but i can guarantee that you'll get better than you should.

now listen carefully.

(1) whenever you can, bootlick. if it involves making fun of the teacher, do so within boundaries. friends always help each other, so if you manage to befriend your lecturer, that's half the battle won.

(2) the lecturer is always right. even if you think you know better, or have done enough research to go against them, lecturers hate getting corrected. they might not say it, but they do.
screw creativity. teachers like practicality. creativity is when you go out to work. when you're in school. forget it.
they're as conventional as yellow bananas. dont be the red ones.

(3) always follow to the advice teachers give. they might encourage creativity, but they actually LOVE it when people eumulate them. matter of pride i guess. and when i say always, i mean always. even if its gonna cost you the 5 days without sleeping. just do it. they'll be impressed.

(4) when you can, cheat intelligently, butt don't ever get caught. fake the research, do the final product before the process studies. oh. and when cheating, its always maintain a little bit of integrity, in other words, within legal boundaries. making rubber stamps to fake the RECEIVED chop isn't under that category.

(5) reputation is everything. work hard the first submission, because the impression you give keeps you grades where they are. if you screw up the first time, you're one step closer to getting your 5 Cs, and don't tell me Cs and Ds are bigger than As. As much as architecture is as much a pain in the ass as a PMSing woman, the standards are very much different different.

(6) this point is still under observation. so follow at your own risk. sleep during all lectures. teachers KNOW its boring, they don't like teaching it either. but when it comes to asking the teacher's opinion, ALWAYS look interested. even if they're babbling about how to build a garden when you asked them about a wall.

(7) always look tired. so they think you've been up doing work, even if it's because you've had one too many drinks the night before. and whine about how many times you've changed your design, even if it's only once. when they say "see? challenging right?" always say yes. and shake your head like it's the hardest thing you've ever done. they love it when you make them seem so god-like because its a piece of cake to them. which leads back to point 1 : bootlicking.

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there. daniel's guide to being a good architecture student.
and if you're wondering why im blogging even though i sort of temporarily shut down the blog yesterday? things took a change for the better i guess. (: back to gay posts! temporality is back in business! til further notice of course. you know how stress affects your mood.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

i wish i didn't have to live to regret everything i've done.
i've never felt so tormented. it's gnawing inside.
you took the knife and stabbed it, but i chose to leave it there.
and even as life ebbs away.
i promise i'll keep trying.
for now, pretend it's for the best.
i'll be alright.


this blog will not be updated until further notice.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

i wish i could just keep dreaming.
in dreams you're everything you want to be
in real life, you're everything else.

and for that, i should be apologetic.